The Weekend

A quick recap of my weekend would be frantic cleaning on friday, frantic cooking on friday and frantic set up on saturday. Also I was quit busy during the day on saturday when people were coming over. I got to spend sporatic amounts of time with groups of people. Spent some indoor time with the people with munchkins (yeah the planned tent thing didn't work out... way to hot) spent time with church people, spent time with relatives and fam and friends.I had previously thought I'd make some grand announcement and thanking our references and saying a prayer around the time food was to come out, but um instead it was a "food is done, come and get it." But it was a good day, we had a few new couples come to our house that were friends/church people that haven't seen Casa De Stittleburg, so that was cool.

Today I spent the day reading, watching TV with hubby, eating left overs, and reading blogs, actually a lot of new blogs. That is kinda were my post is coming from tonight. I had a now semi rare flair up of emotions tonight. I am on the hunt for IF blogs or blogs of people pursueing fostering/adoption to follow. I found a couple, but it seams like at least a third of the IF/ttc blogs that I found the people are preggo. And I had a hard twinge on jealousy even though I don't know these people i was still pretty jealous of them.  I don't know why I felt that way..well ok I guess  kinda do, but I should have moved on. I have moved on. Ok, really I am moving on. I was jealous, shed a very few tears and moved on, to writing this post.  Tommorow I am going to support group, I will bite the big bullet of "I'm weird" "I'm Alone" "My situation is strange compared to most" and go to the support group.  I think...