Recap, sorta

Tonight I chose to go to the monthly meeting/support group for infertility. I donno how I feel about the people there. I recognized one from the bible study I went to a while back, the leader of the meeting I didn't know and there was also another new person tonight. Everyone shared their story and where they were in the process. The host and I were both persueing adoption, another girl is just starting her IF journey after a medical illness was discovered, and another one is "exhausting all her options" (her words, not mine). It was a little odd for me, cuz my situation is different, and alot of the tests two of the girls were talking about I had no clue what they were.  We talked about different struggles that us IF people go through, especially things people say and so on. In the end it was nice, I will probably go to next months meeting, especially now that I have bitten the bullet and somewhat overcame my anxiety of it all.

Monday Blues...

So I have kinda been in a blah mood today. Probably still re-cooping from the party, but then again dunno.
I have decided to go to the meeting/support group. I am freaking out y'all. Some of you know that I chickened out for the meeting two months ago, and chickened out for last months meeting. I had a book club on the same day with girls from church and told the host I would be going to the support group instead. I was all ready to go too, but i didn't. I chickened out again. I know why to. I am a shy person soo that doesn't help, but my biggest fear is the people in the group saying I don't belong there or something along that line since my situation is different. I have not been ttc'ing for years and years, and have not had tests done, and have not had a lot of other things IF ladies have gone through. My IF is because I have a medical condition that I was born with so it is odd... But I am going, already told the lady I will be there. Also their group must be small, since she had sent a meeting cancelation announcement at the same time I had sent my rsvp to the meeting, so in the next few minutes the meeting went from on to canceled to back on again! so the three of us ladies will be meeting...I am so nervous...........
Also I am cleaning up from the party still, my mom and friend of MIL, and friend of fam and I did dishes, ok well all of them did dishes and cleaned tables, I just put dishes away. Still got to vaccuum and sweep and maybe mop the kitch. Possible steam clean my carpet in the LR since someone dropped cake on my carpet! :) We were both all laughs and smiles about it, it was actually kinda funny! Oh, so why I am I having to clean again? Chris is coming over again tommorow night :) yeah! So he plans to do a walk through and start the interview.   Oh I forgot I still need to make a fire escape plan and copy some papers for the guy... well better get to that! I will post a recap of tonights meeting so you know I didn't skip out again!!