Weirdness....Anxiety.....???

I'm weird, plain and simple. I really cant explain it fully either... I guess it is some jealousy mixed with anxiety mixed with lack of patience currently... hmmph. I hope we get matched soon. A fellow foster friend just got her first placement, a newborn kiddo.  I want to say that I will appreciate and care for any kid that comes through our door, but in a small/tiny way I am hoping for a little bundle. I just hope we get matched soon- I am going bonkers waiting. I have been very busy with crafts to keep my mind at bay.. I just hope our match comes soon!!