So i am amazed I have nothing to do. I have no more packing, no more laundry (totally amazing), and nothing else trip related left for me to do. Um, ok so I kinda lied. We still have to pack our electronic bag, and being the techie geeks that we are, we will have alot of stuff. But most will be hubby's. I will just be adding the lappy and camera to the bag!!
So this week was good, but crazy busy. Emotions were in check most of the week. I had a little cry on monday after my first infertility group meeting/bible study. It was more of a happy cry of finding people who were talking about situations that I have been in on this IF journey.
I got the great opportunity to go to lunch with a friend on wednesday. I must say I was pretty worried about what would be talked about, and most especially breaking down and crying in front of her. I try to keep my tears to my self. I ended up doing really good. I could feel the tears coming at one point, but I held em back! Thank you friend for being a friend. You really got me to think about a lot of stuff. Especially the fact about God loving me and hubby loving me even though we can't have our own kids. Thank you for that. I had really struggled with the hubby part because I felt like a failure, like I blogged about. And because of a few other reasons that I will not go into here that got us a little off track connectedness wise. I keep rehearing you say, He loves you, he really does. I needed to hear that. Also, I decided to take another step on my walk with Christ. I had been looking for a few weeks for a good devotional/daily reading plan, I ended up starting a daily devotional plan on Youversion (life church's bible website) by Rick Warren. I am on day two.. we shall see how good I stick to this. Also, bought myself a notebook, and I am gonna try the journaling you talked about. I had been using a journal for prayers so am used to journaling to some degree. And also I decided after our lunch that I am gonna write my parents a letter while I am gone about how I feel about them not bringing up the emotional aspects I am dealing with regarding IF and adoption. So again thanks!
This weekend we are driving to the cape and to NH next weekend for a relaxing and reconnecting vacation. I am really looking forward to it!! Especially seeing my relatives next week. Hubby gets to hopefully meet my cousins for the first time (i think!) so it will be good. I had originally thought limited wifi through my cell phone, but I found out they have wifi at the vcape house! yeah yeah yeah!! Ok, I'm a little to addicted to the internet .... and WoW!! But I will get a chance to update my blog if I get some alone time. I also have LOTS of reading planned for this trip!! So for now I will say adieu! I still have a blog working about my story... It might get up this next week, maybe!
Oh, fyi for those that don't know my abbreviations I listed in this post and others, here are the two. IF-infertility WoW - World of Warcraft. Ok so hope that clears those up! :)
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