Ok, warning this blog is a rantish, so be warned. It is IF related as well. Oh and hello ladies from church who might be reading this :)
So today I was reminded of how alone I feel in this whole IF situation... Yes there are support groups and books to read, but sometimes I just wish some people would talk to me about how I am feeling. Specifically the women in my life (mom & sister more spacific). I sometimes feel like an out cast in my own family. My dad tries to make small talk about it and does ok with it. In some ways I am happy I am not asked what I am feeling about the whole situation, because I know I would just be ball of tears. I have moved on somewhat from where I was emotionally over this whole thing, it is just talking about it to my parents tends to bring out the emotional side of me... Ahhh... But i really wish my mom would bring it up. I guess maybe she doesn't know how to bring it up. I give her tons of chances to talk about it, I have told her about friends that are preggers and she asks about them, but hasn't asked how I feel about my situation. Ok maybe I am selfish in wanting to talk about this with her but yet not really being able to bring it up myself. Hmm what to do, what to do.
I'm assuming your talking about your desire to be a parent? Have you told them that it is ok to ask? It is such a tender topic for so many, that I know that I hestitate to bring it up. I've been thinking about you a lot the last few weeks - one of the reasons I was drawn to read your blog this week. I'd love to find an in between location and meet for lunch or coffee some time. Would you be up for that?
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