Getting real

Um, ok so be warned, some swearage commences in the post henceforth...So I have started this blog post and deleted it more times than I can count. I am so %^&*!$& pissed at myself. Seriously, wth is my problem. I am so frustrated with my weight and I am at the point of giving up on ever being skinny. Hmph, that sounds rather depressing.  I just don't have the accountablity that I need (want), and good for you food costs to much, and I really hate to cook, and I really hate figuring out what the &^@# to cook Hubby that is gluten free, and I like fast food to much, and ... and... ...and... Oh MY GOSH, grr, so many freaking excusses. Why cant I get over them, gosh dang it. I really need to do something, it is getting bad. I am not gaining, I'm just not doing anything to get it off...

Also I have been sick alot more than I'd like to be, and my lovely endo has no clue what it could be...great... So either I get to keep guessing/messing around with vitamins or spend mucho dinero to figure it out. So I am going to try the vitamin route at this time.  Also nutrition, cuz um well I know for a fact that it aint hot. And I am horrible when it comes to goals, horrible I say. So, we are going to make goals...makes sense right?!? But these will be slightly higher than known acheivability, so they practically will be acheivable. The goals for the next week are:

1. Eat a fruit or vegetable each day this week. Um ok I know this sounds way bad, but i am not a veggie liker/lover and usually forget to eat the fruit before it goes bad. I even have canned fruit. Not great, but better than no fruit/veg.

2. Record what I eat either on spark people or on a notepad, and show proof on here. Erm, yeah, lets hope I remember to do this. I am bad at journaling because I dont want to write down the truth, sad huh.

3. Drink 64oz water a day - I generally do good on this, but have somewhat slacked and been drinking more soda.

Um, ok so only three goals. Sad but I have realized I can only focus on three weight loss goals at a time. My reward for sticking to these three goals for this coming week (Sun-Sat) will be a new paperback book, and not one i have to read for book club.  Ok I'm off to sleep! night!