Update...sorta

So don't know how to title this post really.

So update: I have been cleaning like crazy for both our party and most importantly our pending case worker visit.  I am less nervous about this in some ways and more nervous about the first visit in other ways.  The whole process is just so overwhelming for me at times.  I am nervous that our house will be acceptable, that there wont be to many crazy things he recommends we do. Hubbies big concern (other than the money thing of course) is the food thing. Why I have no idea. We went grocery shopping recently and he kept adding things to make our cupboards look even fuller with food. Really? Like we don't have enough food as it is??!!  We have plenty of food fyi-but that is one of Hubbies anxiety points. Also do to work issues on hubbies end we had to reschedule our appt, so now it is the day after, tues at 9am.  Thinking about making muffins or something monday night-not sure if that would be appropriate though...

Hmmph, in some ways I wish I didn't make this blog as public as I did with linking it to fb. Tongiht I really want to talk about something on here, but too many people I know, know about this blog and I would be nervous of their judgement/reaction, so I will keep it in.

Maybe I will write it to write it and password protect it, that way I can get it out and also monitor who reads it.... I dunno