So were shall I start? Today has been challenging for me. I could barely keep the tears away long enough to go to a dinner out with some ladies from church. Today we found out fmom is fighting her license revokation & criminal charges (really??!?). So our chances of getting Sprout is slim to none. I know there are other children out there, but don''t I get to mourn the loss of chances with Sprout before looking to the future? At least that's what I thought I had the right to do. I know many people just don't really know what to say, so they say "someone else will come along" and I know someone will. But again I want to have a chance to let go of my current thoughts for Sprout. Sigh... I don't know it is hard for me right now though. A few people close to me have told me they are there for me, but they tend to be there for me until they want to critique me. Just please be there for me. I was there for you... I didn't say anything negative, or suggested things. I was just what they call a good listener. Just someone to listen to you cry or talk, can you please just do that for me?? That is why I don't tell you things, never really have... just listen please.
I don't know why you seem to think that letting go of possibilities with Sprout is such an easy thing, you think I shouldn't be so upset. I am upset, and I think it is fine to have a day or two to be upset about this... I did just find out about it today......
Also, really? Make me chose between one family or another family? This angers me. I should not have to be forced to go to a burial. I am going to the funeral. I want to spend time with the hubbs fam at the annual cookie bake. Sigh... you tell me you'll be upset and disappointed with us both if we don't go. Great-thanks for letting ME choose what I want to do.
Of course you're allowed to mourn. People are just trying to assure you that things will end up being ok.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry too much about the delivery talk. It should stop after Bonnie has her baby. We're just trying to assure her. It's scary going into it since you don't know what to expect no matter how much you read. (And sometimes scarier the more you read.)